Friday, March 26, 2010

dont talk to me about my vindictive nature, let's not talk about the storms I can connect with and contract, with the winds that could blow you off your feet.
you say you fear the forests and I understand your fears as much as I resent them because deep inside in the lushest green of peaks is where I feel the most connected.
we are like two very different peas, yours have been genetically modified and created on to look, but mine are alive in all senses that are five, you can taste touch smell hear and see my peas, whereas yours, well I dont know if they truly exist or not.
I make up words as I go along in order to express myself better because I have felt like I am both muted and dumb in your regard because nothing I say seems to enter any orifice of your body other than your nose where unfortunately it cannot be processed- that deviated septum has stopped the connection from nose to brain- the egyptians would find it all to be a problem. your soul could not be removed because I am convinced you lack one. I am equally convinced that I have 30, or is it 23, for each year of my life feels so different to me than the last and who's to say that I cant be a different person in the same skin every single day?

Thursday, March 25, 2010

let's neglect all feelings and any that have passed through us in the past three years and call it a day, when really its been over a thousand. Our time has been like Anne Boleyn's reign, a thousand days, a baby girl, a lot of fights, much mistrust, lots of distance, many wars and ends with one of us losing our heads and the other marrying someone else 3 days later.
oh for god's sake, for once I want to keep my head and get married.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

maybe one day I'll let you in on the big secret
until then feel at peace in the poppy fields of my dreams
under the spell of this lush-full opiate you are
blinded by everything that is your eyelids hiding you from the truth

(YOU ARE CONSTANTLY INTERRUPTING EVERYTHING ARTISTIC THAT COMES OUT OF ME AND I'M HAVING A CONNIPTION.)
oh and you above and you below are NOT the same person. One of whom drives my migraines the other that drives all my best dreams.