I have absolutely finally come up with a New Year's resolution exactly about 21 days late. It doesn't matter to me, we are still new to this year and its still a resolution, starting about now:

BE MORE LADYLIKE.

indeed, I finally need to become more of a lady, and less of a slob, even on days when I have exams. Truthfully speaking, most of my clothing is packed away in a suitcase right now but as soon as I am back in La Belle France from Slovakia, I swear on every pair of heels that I will be and every cute skirt I will wear, I will become more ladylike, even down to my mannerism. I hope to at least, and I feel like at the very least, I will fulfill the goal of being "more" if not "Lady"

Favorite things I will buy or have bought: the fun part is the guessing which I have purchased and which is the plan:

 

My dream clothes are all out of reach and i am beginning to feel the onslaught of my nightmares haunting me

I forgot to mention I am going to see one of my favorite bands ever, and one of the most creative bands, in my opinion lately. they gathered all this attention around them lately and I feel super positive about how much energy their show will have. I have been insanely and distinguishably jealous of everyone that has seen them, I am just PRAAAYING they will play some stuff of Gods Money


OH AND BABES OF THE WORLD ARE COMING:

I just need a good honest slap across my red cheeks.

I am beginning to feel like i have sunken into a convulsion mind perversion. I cant seem to explain my simplest thoughts and I have been feeling highs and lows like I have before and its telltale signs of mind crimes.
I am having difficulty coping with my own thoughts, something which I feel I of all people should be able to understand. I know how I feel but I somehow feel like it must be untrue and that the circling vultures over my head have been imagined by my mind. Where would such a great african bird fly to a country as cold as mine, laying thick in its quiet cold, its bitter wind that even the trees gave up- they finally started swaying. I feel like there is no life on earth and my feet have lost as much as my mind.

grumbly grumbly.