Maybe I'm just setting myself up for some major heartbreak, some major disapointment. I'm trusting too far and too soon and yet I feel ok by it. My breathing is regular and although my hands are shaking well.. when aren't they? since those days of smoking a lot my hands have been in a constant state of shaking. But I feel like for once things are ok, and things are sort of stable and I feel okay-ed. all the damn time. I need so much reassurance and for once i'm actually getting it AND i dont feel like a fucking idiot asking for it.